you can't change the fact that life is going to happen whether you want it to or not..."the only thing that doesn't change in this universe is change itself". And it's just the same with people, you can't change them no matter what...so let go. Because when you do let go all your expectations about them changing or the end result falls away. and so does the fear, worry and stress that goes along with it.
Probablly one of the hardest things for me to do is just LET GO. I wonder sometimes if this little girl inside holds onto the past and the future because that's all she had then and so she thinks that's all she has now. But those rules don't apply now...why won't she just let me take over. In our conversations together, especially recently, I believe I'm gaining her trust. She doesn't have to hide in her dream world in her imagination any longer and just because she lets go of that doesn't necessarily mean that she'll loose the ability to still dream vividly and use her wild imagination. A voice inside tells me to be patient and loving and pay attention to her needs like her father did so long ago. Nurture yourself, love yourself, listen to yourself, be that caring magical fun creature she always imagined would be there for her in her time of need...then...you'll see the difference.
Probablly one of the hardest things for me to do is just LET GO. I wonder sometimes if this little girl inside holds onto the past and the future because that's all she had then and so she thinks that's all she has now. But those rules don't apply now...why won't she just let me take over. In our conversations together, especially recently, I believe I'm gaining her trust. She doesn't have to hide in her dream world in her imagination any longer and just because she lets go of that doesn't necessarily mean that she'll loose the ability to still dream vividly and use her wild imagination. A voice inside tells me to be patient and loving and pay attention to her needs like her father did so long ago. Nurture yourself, love yourself, listen to yourself, be that caring magical fun creature she always imagined would be there for her in her time of need...then...you'll see the difference.
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Re: life happens
Sun, March 20, 2005 - 8:09 PMI am happy to find this tribe just now. I was thinking this morning of starting one with a similar theme! Thanks Vanessa!
I find it so healing and transformative to just be fully wherever I am, with out trying to fit into the subtle rules of whatever community, or tribe, I am in.
I love places where there is just space to show up. Where there is nothing to prove, no one to impress, no necessity to even make sense, or fit into what else is going on.
I love to experiment, try on characters, try on identities. Fly in circles or figure-eights rather than in a straight line.
I notice that if I really, really enjoy something there is sometimes a thought in my head which spins that something is wrong with that.
I have been totally engaged with Tribe.net since I came here a few months ago. I am spending a lot of time here and less in some places where I think I "should" be spending time.
I am having great experiences, meeting great folks, trying on new realities, entering new worlds and universes. Surfing around here with a smile on my face...
Visiting feast table after feast table. and there is the lingering thought that so much fun and revelation just must not be ok.
And that thought sure does not stop me. Life is about smelling roses and I am smelling a lot of roses here.
Love,
Bruce
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Tue, March 22, 2005 - 2:19 PMThat was beautifully stated Bruce, in fact I had mentioned to Vanessa that I was thinking about a similar tribe idea also, actually it was a moment of powerful synchronicity. I agree having a place to kick of your ego shoes and be whatever you are in the moment is greatly needed. And that this place here and this place called tribe.net has been a wondrous adventure in transformation, exploration and community. Thank you Bruce, thank you Vanessa for creating this space and thanks to all who are creating this magikal place.
Love in ecstasy
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Tue, March 22, 2005 - 9:31 PMThanks for the feeback, Ash! I appreciate it!
Hmmm... I am thinking right now... where to kick my ego shoes?
Actually, I feel myself to quite in balance right now.
But here is something.. I want to feel as good sitting in front of a computer screen as I do walking through a forest.
I love being here, and sitting in front of this electronic instrument just doesn't feel good for my energy field.
I want everything in my life to work! And serve me on all levels!
I do not want connecting with all these beautiful people here on Tribe. net to have to involve a machine that is not tuned to my own ressonance.
Why are there no EMF free computers on the market place!!!
Hey, what is the purpose of this iinterferance!!
Good... it feels good to kick my ego shoes with this one. I hold back these feelings.. I hold back feelings about having to awaken in such a dense and bizzare world and culture.
It is like the friggin' stone age still!! Yeah! Yeah!
Thanks for listening (smile).
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Wed, March 23, 2005 - 3:54 PMYeah I know exactly what you mean for along time, since I work on a comp allot, I felt that it was a problem and something that hindered me, then I realized that the internet is like a divinity full of potential and so much vast information. So I decided to change my perception and proceeded to fetish my computer for it became the alter to this new divinity I called the AlterNet and put all kinds of natural things on my computer like neat sticks and crystals and stickers that had meaning to me, until it actually became a work of art itself and it was amazing the difference it made with the energy and my connections through the web. I have been a Shaman for a long time but it took me a long time to recognize that I can do my magic with everything I work with, which really is just giving attention to my surroundings and having awareness of my own implications....
But still I felt like I was in the stone ages for along time and would get quite irate at the energy sometimes...
Now I can laugh at that silly me before
And by laughing I realize that I was actually uncomfortable to mentioned that I have glued rocks and sticks to my computer even though what I do in my Shamanic practices go way beyond that, its silly how certain things hang on in our minds and how our ego can be frail even when we work to let it go on a regular basis. So I laugh at that silly me before and laugh even harder at the silly me now…
And thanks back Bruce for bringing on such laughter this is working quit nicely.
Love in ecstasy
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Fri, March 25, 2005 - 7:27 PMHello Ash,
Thank you for your post and your laughter! I love your making your computer into an altar to new divinity!
I did something similar the other day. I had a pile of manila file folders full of information about grunt tasks I had been putting off.
Then I had the inspiration to put trippy expansive writings and sacred pictures into those file folders and let that energy transform my relationship to those tasks. It really worked.
It has been great to open those folders since then and have magic jump out like an instant rainbow.
Each day of my life I feel totally "on" during parts of the day, and then I find myself reverting to some ancient old habit. These days I am able to just watch this for the most part... hmmm... isn't this interesting....? I even chuckle to myself at times as I watch my eagerness to rebel against my own best intentions.
Just "being with what is" works so much better that trying to fit some picture of the ideal spiritual way to be.
Ahhh yes to surrendering to the dance!!
Thanks also,
Bruce
By the way, to others reading this, I would love to hear from you, anything, just whatever is now. This tribe, as I see it, is about releasing even the most subtle concerns with looking good and just allowing what ever is going on to rip....
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